Belief in God

January 18, 2011 at 8:10 am | Posted in Faith, Let's Talk Life... | 5 Comments

Believing in an invisible God who more often than not chooses to work through the natural as opposed to the supernatural is one of the greatest acts of faith that God asks of us in this scientific age.

(Edit: Please know that this was not written in bitterness. It’s not really that I question the existence of God, but more that I question his methods.)

I might even argue that it is the hardest thing to ask people to believe in. For once you believe that God does in fact exist, it is easy enough to believe that he would send a son to earth, love us, or even die for us. If he exists, he can be and do anything, he’s God after all. So if he exists of course he could send his son to earth, love us and die for us.

It is the solid, beyond a doubt, no way to deny it, proof of his existence that so often infuriates me (and I feel most likely other Christians as well.)

For if he exists, then he deserves our everything and it would be beyond foolish for anyone to not worship, trust, and follow hard after him. However, more often than not, we pray for days on end for God to move, and for all we can see, he doesn’t. Morning after morning, we ask for direct guidance from him and save for the very rare occasion when God chooses to use an audible voice or send down a fiery angel (neither an event which I have experienced personally), we receive no clear answer. Quiet time after quiet time, we pour diligently through scripture asking that it’s words might come alive to us, and usually we just look at it and scratch our heads and then figure out what seems to make logical sense to us, a conclusion that we probably could have come to on our own with out divine revelation from God.

And so I ask, like so many doubting Thomas’ before me, why oh Lord do you choose to work through natural means, why do you remain silent and distant even from the open and seeking heart? Why would you at most whisper at those you seek a deep relationship with, those who honestly are seeking that relationship as well?

It is enough to make those of lesser faith and lesser determination doubt your very existence, so why do you test those who remain faithful like this?

It’s infuriating.

What are your thoughts on the subject? What have you learned or seen that keeps your faith strong despite the silence?

I am not looking for logical, patented Sunday school answers here (I can recite those myself and more often than not, these answers are given to shut-up rather than cultivate or further the discussion and often don’t really satisfy the asker’s questions), I want you to wrestle with it deep down. I want you to ask yourself why you believe what you believe and why God seems so silent sometimes. If he wants a deep personal relationship with each of us, why doesn’t he speak up when we call out to him?

(I am sorry if it appears to some as if I am pushing people into doubt and disbelief, that is not my intent. I simply feel that unless you have asked yourself these questions honestly and struggled with them openly instead of shrugging them off or trivializing them, then I don’t think you can have a deep faith or a real profound trust and belief in God, let alone a relationship with him.)

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  1. A refreshing read of honesty instead of the politically correct nonsense that many can’t get past.

    For me, it truly is the quiet voice deep in my soul that gives me my peace, rest and belief. It’s the fact that I constantly trample on my Gods beckoning in favor of something meaningless yet He is right there time and time again when I finally do look His way. It’s knowing, believing and accepting His unending mercy and forgiveness; because without it, knowing how dark and doomed I am is downright scary.

    I’ve gone through the “song of Solomon” type times with God where He seems right there with me at every turn. I’ve also gone through the “wilderness” times where He seems just so Damn distant that it’s pointless to even care anymore. Looking back though for me, my wilderness times were almost entirely because I chose to dwell there in solitude, not because He required it of me or refused my longings.

    With that said, it is a very curious thing that the all powerful creator of the universe chooses to work often times in whispers rather then wonders. Although, I do find myself asking how many times He has shown up in miraculous ways and I, or someone else have brushed it aside as the product of chance and not that of a God who’s providing for his people. It also brings me to my thoughts of what is miraculous? As hard as it is to fully understand the wisdom behind it, an all powerful God refraining from forcing his creation to accept He exists by pushing the right buttons for the right humans is in itself miraculous. If it were a case of Christian “x” has chosen to believe so now Christian “x” has God and angels sitting down at Chic Fil A (and that’s where they would want to eat because it’s absolutely a heavenly experience) with them, I guess for Non Christian “x” the decision may not necessarily be based on response to what Jesus has already done for us but rather on “if I choose to believe then this is what will happen for me.” (if that makes any sense, I did just wake up)

    I really don’t understand it though. I travel in circles when I get on this topics route. This is one of those things that I have to choose to accept I’ll never grasp. For me, It just keeps coming back to a rememberance of things I have seen and experienced that I know were my Savior. If asked to scientifically prove they were my God I couldn’t. I don’t really care though. I smile knowing that I do have a special relationship with the creator of all, and knowing He is always in my corner loving me more deeply then I will ever know.

    This may not have even addressed the question fully as I’m on my phone laying in bed (as I said I just woke up!) so I can’t figure out how to scroll back up! Let me say again though, I absolutely appreciate the honest posting from a vulnerable and possibly frustrated place inside of you. I don’t think you need to apologize in posts like this, I think people need to apologize for writing things out that are lip service and not their true thoughts yet posing as if they are. Thanks for the morning read.

    -Justin

    • This is awesome Justin. Thank you for sharing your personal experiences and struggles with the same question.

      This is exactly why I posted this, to see if these questions resonated with anyone else, and to hear what they have learned/discovered through that search.

      I’d love to hear other people’s comments on the matter too, so please share your thoughts.

  2. thanks

  3. Very good questions that deserve good answers that, of course, God alone can fully give. But I very much enjoyed reading Justin’s response. I think He summed up my thoughts when he said this:

    I really don’t understand it though. I travel in circles when I get on this topics route. This is one of those things that I have to choose to accept I’ll never grasp. For me, It just keeps coming back to a rememberance of things I have seen and experienced that I know were my Savior. If asked to scientifically prove they were my God I couldn’t. I don’t really care though. I smile knowing that I do have a special relationship with the creator of all, and knowing He is always in my corner loving me more deeply then I will ever know.

    Thanks Justin! (and thanks, Robert, for opening up a VERY important topic!)

  4. i love it


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